​At some point, I thought. I must gift the world with my story. It’s powerful in many ways, and to never share your jewels is almost like keeping them all bottled up.


They waste away, not because its essence will deteriorate. It wastes because no one can capture its beauty. See your story is like precious gems, accumulated from your own spirits experiences that, when exposed glimmer a beauty only unique to you. 


So I think, now is the time.To speak my peace. 
In speaking my peace I Acknowledge not that I am a victim of abuse but that I am powerful in my life. My empathic abilities grant me the emotional intelligence to navigate this life, and I now choose to embrace its power rather than fear it. 


The Root Cause Of Narcissism, is a refusal and fear of our true power.


Many have summed up power to be something that is bad. Something evil, that people do horrible things to gain. However this is incorrect.


Lack of power is cruel. The lack of power is what breaks hearts, destroys families, ruins lives. True power is none of these things. True power is loving, safe and pure.


True power doesn’t have to war to show its power. Power just is. It’s an existence, and it never has to fight to be here. It only needs to be surrendered to, to truly exist in our world.


That’s the dilemma of the narcissist. It cannot surrender to life, it cannot surrender to the highest power. And so they continue to go against the natural rhythms of life, causing chaos in the hearts of others and shriveling from their own blocked heart. 


When we are faced with Narcissism, or a person Suffering from NPD.—There is always a victim in these scenarios. We all know that the narcissist is not the victim, they are the abuser. However when we use these labels, of accountability and also blaming.. it takes away from the power that’s within in their existence. 


Yes this person played a role in our life, that is now causing our hearts to ache from grief and downright disturbance to our soul. They also came into your life to send you a very important message about who you are, and how you are to live your life from this moment on. 


The pain people bring us should open our eyes to something. Not just that imperfect (even devilish) people exist on the planet. But now we can look our traumas in the eye and be grateful we can now make mindful decisions on how we choose to carry ourselves and interact with others. 


Co-dependency and Validation is something that empaths who are afraid of true power need to feel “safe”. A steady supply of energy and A mask for inferiority is what the narcissist needs to feel “important”. The Narcissist is also deathly afraid of true power, and anyone that exhibits this energy will cause the narcissist to either be extremely attracted, followed by extreme repulsion. & What do you get when you mix love and hate? Jealousy. 


The Narcissist is not only repulsed and attracted to true power, but they are jealous. They love the image and energy they see received by truly powerful people, but they are oblivious to the internal and emotional work that is required for it. Not only are they oblivious, they are unwilling— because the empath they attract is there to teach them how. 


For my Empaths, You have attracted a narcissist into your life because you are struggling to live in your truth. You’ve got one leg in, and one leg out. Wavering back and forth from one thought pattern, whereas your actions have not yet aligned 1000% with your thoughts and emotions. It’s because you still don’t trust them (or even understand them) as greatly as you should. Because of this, you are left and right brain imbalanced and your faith in the highest power (god, the universe, your higher being) will be tested through the narcissist. 


The Narcissist is here to teach you, that you are more powerful than you think. So do us a grand favor... speak your truth and let it heal you, then move on into your life of power and glory. That means do everything you can for the protection and glorification of YOUR own existence, hence the existence of all others. 


It’s okay to be angry, it’s okay to be sad, let those emotions pass through you and use them to invoke (keyword) CHANGE, into your life. Learn who it is you are more intimately, so that you can spot a phony a mile away. 


The trauma narcissistic relationships bring can be detrimental to our mental and emotional health. Always remember though, we are reborn much stronger, wiser and better from the ashes versus resisting change and evolvement. 


Don’t become the narcissist.


Unknowingly we pick up traits from them as a means of defending our heart. Please remember, that power exists when we choose to see it and bow down. Not in any man or woman, but within our being. It’s here and it’s ready to defend us when we allow the e-motions to flow and direct them into the areas that will serve life and love. 


Don’t turn back now, you’ve come too far.
Tap into your power.. The E(nergy in) Motion.

 All My Life..since being a little girl, There’s a vision of true love that I keep incredibly close to my heart. I’m sure many can relate. The balance and harmony that Divine Masculine And Feminine bring to one another once they have become one enthralls me and warms my heart to it’s very core.
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This experience of real Love, this memory that I have is one to be cherished and shared with the world. As I’ve grown into a Woman, The Creatrix.. I see that vision clear as day. That no man will ever be capable of handing my love to me on a platter, but rather.. they add on to the Essence that I, as The Creatrix bring forth. 




The Creatrix We are walking vibrations. The Feminine Energy Rules all things Yin, All things within. Within us holds the secrets and mysteries of all life. Many name it The Dark Feminine, where all life takes seed. Simply put, We Are master manifestors—and all life here on earth responds to our very state of being vibrationally. 
Now that you see (in a nutshell) that you are powerful, it’s time to delve into how you can actually experience this power— and reclaim the love you’ve dreamed of since you were a girl to come running.. no.. SPRINTING back into your life..



Look In The Mirror

The Yearning for companionship comes to us the hardest when we simply aren’t satisfied with who we’re stuck with. Ourselves. Being Alone and Being lonely are quite different in nature. When we’re alone; we’re at ease, we’re  satiated with our own presence, even happy to get the chance to learn who we are at our best. 


But when we’re Lonely.. We’re sad. A part of who we are goes missing. There is falsely a void through our lens of vision that can ONLY be filled (or so we think) by someone else.. and when that someone never shows we proceed with our self-loathing. 


This is where the demon  of turmoil finds an opening into your mind. Telling you that you aren’t enough for what you know the little girl in you truly desires out of love and life. 


So LET ME TELL YOU..


As SOON As You Start Feeling the Hurt & Believing The lies.
I want you to grab a mirror..


Look at You Like you never have looked at yourself before, deeply, intently.. with also a great sincerity and compassion.


Say ALOUD: “I AM BEAUTIFUL,
I AM WORTHY, I AM REAL LOVE”
 
Repeat that to yourself as many times as you need, and make sure you’re staring deeply into your eyes. Your spirit is watching, and listening there, and for you to Overpower those shadow thoughts you must drown out its noise and get your SPIRITS attention.


Communicate with Yourself that You Mean Business, and that YOU CARE about Your Spirits Well Being.


Then Proceed to Take ACTION, and the Words you have Just Spoken. We all know when it comes to talk— the follow through is what strengthens that bond. So do something in the day that your future you will be grateful for.


And I’m NOT TALKING about eating an Almond Joy.. 


I’m talking about the THREE Essentials to well-being...

• take care of your body
• take care of your mind
• take care of your heart

 
True Love Starts with You, 
and it Ends With You. 


If You’re not Well, Nothing in your Life Will Reflect that. This isn’t to say that there aren’t people, places and situations that can bring you down even though you’re up, because there are!


This is Mainly about how important it is to Love who you see in the Mirror, all the potential and flaws included.. reminding yourself that things can ALWAYS change and be better with time. 


Become Encompassed in All the Love You have to offer yourself. Relish in how great it feels. BE SELFISH, So that when True Love is presented to you.. your cup will be OVERFLOWING with heart emojis 


BE AUTHENTIC 

If You Want Anything TRUE or Love that’s REAL, it cant be Woven with anything Fake.
Yes I mean, with loving that person in the mirror you’ve also got to be Transparent. What is it that you may be ignoring about you, or your life.. maybe even HIDING that you don’t want the world to see? 


What you choose not to reveal, is still and will always be apart of you. It’s always better to be upfront with yourself and others about your TRUTHS. 


What you like, what you dislike.
What you love, what you hate.
What your capable of, 
and what you are working on.


Thinking of any aspects of you should NEVER 
cause you to loathe, shame or guilt yourself for prolonged periods of time (anything over 17 seconds). These things about you are blessings because they allow you to learn who you are better than anyone else ever could. 


This is the much more YANG Aspect to calling your true love into your life. It requires you to express the real you, in the best ways possible. 


What are your strengths? Things you love to do? Things you are passionate about? All of this can lead you to your greatest expressions of authenticity. Which will surely attract someone who will LOVE YOU For it! 


How? By you Honoring the truest parts of your nature, you’ll end up in places that relate to the things you love and care about. Which then leads you to people who can admire you for your expertise on things they were already interested in.. 

I am truly blessed 


being able to look back into my families life. There is one thing about it that I notice though, yet always kept inside my thoughts because well.. truth be told I didn’t understand then. Both my grandparents on both sides were “happily married” and together for years.

Both sides had their “happily married” Problems as well. That was just the thing in the 60’s/70’s. To get married, start a family, live simple. Both my grandfathers also had multiples of children outside of their marriage, during their period of “marriage”. So it’s safe to say that it was also a “thing” for husbands to step out on their wife.
 
Fast forward to my mom and dad’s generation.   Marriage is no longer a thing, but divorce is extremely common. They split soon after I was born, and none of this I’d ever thought to question. Until I had my daughter, with marriage never happening and problems within 3 months of the relationship. 
 
Three generations of struggling to stay together. From what I can see, it’s gotten worse as time goes on.


Nobody taught me about love growing up. That’s not really what people aim to teach in schools either.. not even in sex Ed do they make the main focus about LOVE. I had to figure that out on my own, the truth about Love and relationships. Here is a little bit of what’s been revealed to me 
 
The common denominator for my grandmas, mama, and even myself in our relationships is that we were the prize to be kept. The Main chick, The Wife, The Trophy.


We were the ones that men wanted to be seen with, the ones that men subtly admired because of the esteemed aura we maintained. Women in my family carry a reputation of being strong, dignified, and powerful. 
 
The only thing is, to be a Trophy you’ve also got to be plastic. A part of your spirit must be suppressed so that you can do your job of looking good, acting good, and being a wife. 


1. To be a Trophy Means there is a Game to be Played.
There is a competition in Love when you’re regarded as a prize. The man who sees you as the trophy more often sees you as an untouchable possession of his that he keeps up on his shelf for none to touch only too look at and admire in relation to his accomplishments. You’re his trophy and to win you he had to play the game. Not your game, the trophy is just the prize. Not his game, he only craves the respect and acknowledgement. The game = The societal system has in play for all to watch. I think of it similar to that of a football game. 
 2. Winning The Trophy Means You’ve Conquered The TrophyAs a Goddess, I have no desire to be won over. No desire to be seduced or charmed into a relationship. Nowadays there is a strategy taken up by men to get the girl. Most people think nothing of it or even realize it because truth be told, it has been socialized into our culture as normal behavior. They chase you, give you attention, show up, show out, all with the intentions of conquering you. Not actually getting to know who you are.
 


3. Possession Is Not Love
There is a thing that happens when we confuse being wanted with being valued. We fall prey to the chase, and miss the signs that show us who this person really is in relation to us.. and if that relation is a healthy one or not. We get excited when we feel like we’re enchanting enough to keep him knocking at our door— without even thinking if they’re energy really belongs in our space. 
 
Don’t ever confuse being wanted, with being VALUED. Someone who values you, may not ever even bother to chase you. They’ll just sit, watch, and wait until you’ve let them know that they’re presence is even welcome. 
 
Mainstream has told us that men naturally want to conquer and chase their woman.
 
Well the UniverSoul lie detector test has determined.. THAT IS A LIE. 
 
The man who wants to chase you, wants to overpower you and possess you as his trophy. 
 
The man that wants to love you, wants to do everything DEALING with you.. on your own terms, and will openly make sure he’s making that apparent.




 4. When women feel like the trophy, we are competing with each otherEver had this intense feeling of hate for another woman, when seeing the man your with give other women any ounce of attention comparable to the attention he gives to you? Then you take a good look at her and realize how physically beautiful and appealing she is.. and you think to yourself, she’s beautiful..


This is the seed of jealousy, that is living inside every woman who sees herself as a Trophy wife. 
 
This aspect causes the greatest amount of damage, because it destroys the bond and sisterhood between the divine feminine. She’s now turned against her sister, because of the ideologies she’s absorbed and accepted as her reality. 
 
We then begin to find things to hate about each other, all the while smiling in each other’s faces. It happens all the time, and it really has got to stop.
 
Letting the love of your status in a mans life, dictate how you see other women when he sees fit to begin devaluing ALL WOMEN, not just you— is not the way to go. 
 5. Being Possessed, Means Having a Master​Are you free? No I mean in every sense. See I used to think freedom was something tangible, something defined by where I could go physically.. and trust me that’s a huge part of it! There is s freedom we get denied however, when we begin to follow our heart and utilize our minds. All of a sudden, we’re tripping.. because this freedom we crave to tap into will undermine the master. 
 
He won’t be in charge anymore, he won’t be pressed to make decisions that will keep his fear of losing power alive. 
 
You see when a woman is truly free, in every sense. Society has very little impact on her, but the other way around. She’s empowered by life, and doesn’t have to be afraid of being vulnerable in this world. She’s learned strength and vigor through her love for life. 
 
A woman seen as a Trophy, is expected to fulfill a trophies role. And that’s to compliment her man, looks, words, thoughts.. everything! 
 
As soon as you start to have a mind, a voice, and opinion.. you’re stepping out of your role..and now you’ve got to get back in place.
 
Rid Your Mind Of Your Socialization
 
This is important to see, because it is groundwork for many abusive situations that happen quite often. Nearly half of Of all men and women in the U.S. alone experience some type of psychological trauma or abuse in relationships. There is also a link between abusive relationships and child abuse. 
 
Its time We begin to look long deep and hard into the mirror and see who we truly are in this life, so we can transform this world for the better. 

Choose Love

 A lot of people think they love themselves, but I challenge all those people (even you) to question the depth of your love— Are you experiencing any of what I mentioned above? And if so, what are you doing about it right now? It’s worth your energy if it means you’ll be free. 

The Creatrix. Divine feminine, she has a natural capacity for healing. Her nurturing touch, words and love is truly transformational. Many moments in my life I can remember embracing these qualities about me. I loved these traits so much that I had to share it. After while, my devotion to emotion and caring told me that it was my duty to uplift and heal all those who are present in my life. Especially the people I keep close. 

There is a Natural Essence..

about us though, that I must say many aren’t aware of because.. inherently we aren’t aware of it ourselves. It gets labeled as “negativity”, it gets labeled as “moody”, or “PMS”. When really, this are periods in our cycle where we recognize that.. it’s now time to purge, let go, and heal. 




Healing
comes only after we’ve endured the pain of the wound. It comes when we’ve felt what was necessary to be felt, then recognize from those emotions what is no longer serving us— and replacing it with something that now does. 



In Love & Relationships
A Goddess always senses when something is not right. She also senses, when something is.. and She will always let you know when the scales are tipping in either direction.


The more Naive girl, will notice these same things as well. There’s however a difference between the way it is handled. The young girl will attempt to do something to avoid her intuition (true feelings) by providing practical help to the situation at hand so that she can proceed to hold onto and feel the same emotions she was before.


A Goddess however, will simply state her boundaries in relation to her intuition (her true feelings) and let the UniverSoul Magic do all the hard work. She’s not afraid of her truth.. where as the young girl is still clouded by lies. 


This is where you find the women that have men in their lives who put minimal effort into providing these women with the Love that they look to receive. The woman who works all day long while her man is at home playing video games, eating all the food in the fridge. The woman who knows she’s being lied to or kept in the dark about something but evades the subject so she can continue being comfortable. 


Here is the Basic Foundations Of Granting people the usage of your energy, where neither of you are truly benefiting from this exchange. You both may chalk yourself up into thinking you are, because you’re comfortable. But True greatness is always attained outside of that comfort zone.


A Goddess doesn’t have energy to waste, that is what’s most important to her. It’s not time, it’s not money. Her flame, her spirit is what’s most valuable to her and she sees that everything that she ignores her intuition for will slowly but surely convince her that her own inner Being is not to be trusted. She knows her truth is her greatest gift for healing, progression and transformation.


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So How Do You Know The Difference between someone who’s ready to HEAL.. & Someone Who’s Looking For HELP? 
1. They are eager to Listen 

Very often I notice when someone even has the potential for healing, they’re open to words of wisdom. Usually people who are still scorned and not ready for healing will still think they have all the answers.. them and ONLY THEM.


They’re very disconnected from their heart and not able to understand that we are all in sync with each other, and that divine messages flow through from all over when you are open to receiving.


The person who wants help is blind to the spiritual matter at hand, and simply looks to you to help with the practicals. 



2. When you express your emotional negativity, they reflect instead of project



So you’ve got this feeling, and you don’t know what to do with it cuz you don’t wanna seem confrontational... then you realize that how you feel is of utmost importance, put your goddess boxing gloves on and go for it! Then something happens, you get called a negative person with bad energy that your trying to put on them.. all the while, nothing you were addressing that was “so negative” got clarified.


The person that wants help, doesn’t want to reflect on what they could possibly be doing that is unhealthy.


They will turn your initial suspicion into a flaw on your own behalf, turning everything back onto you. You know someone is about healing when you bring them your NOT PERFECT But Real emotions, and they reflect on what kind of person they may have been to arouse those feelings in you and address what they can do to keep it from happening again. 




3. They Appreciate & Adore Your Truth


When you express your truth, your intuition, your spirits message.. the person who seeks healing will fall in love with you for it. 
  
They will admire you, and take heed to your voice because they can feel the sincerity of true love for yourself (hence, all other things) imbedded in your words. 
  
The person who wants help will get annoyed, or patiently wait till you finish talking so they can proceed with the same thought process they had before you showed up in their life. They’re simply not interested in all the hard energetic effort that comes with going within, and they despise or completely ignore this aspect about you. 

Healing is something we’ve been gifted with the ability to do naturally, and As The Creatrix— it is our birthright to heal.


We are our babies first doctor, first lover, first friend. For the world, or other people to diminish those beautiful traits we possess is criminal. But for it to first be a crime we’ve got to point a finger and call it a crime. 


So many people in the world are beginning to truly embrace the energy of healing. Seeing that it’s never a perfect experience, but a real one.


The Compassion, sincerity and understanding is what gives us the chance to rise above the hardships and appreciate life. So relish in being the natural healer you are, because without all those powerful negative emotions the world would never change for the better. 

All Over The Worldthere are women opting to feed their babies lab made formula over their own nurturing milk. I ask them why? Some say they wanted to, but just couldn’t seem to produce any milk. Others say they couldn’t because their babies suck too hard and it hurts, or that their nipples are sensitive.. OR that it’s too much work. 
 
& I agree, with the pressures women are faced with (raising children, raising men, running the world) breast feeding your child can be exhausting, exasperating and formula just feels and seems like a no brainer.  
  
But what if I told you milk, wasn’t just water minerals and nutrients? It’s not a blueprint formula your body makes like they do in labs, Our very thoughts, emotions and energy goes into our milk and can develop your babies strength and immunity faster and far better than a bottle ever could. 
  
So why then do women do it?
As I said, a large proportion opt for it because they feel that there is no better choice than the one their doctors feed them. 
 
When I was pregnant with Eleva (my daughter), it was a little more obvious to people that My health and the babies health was entirely integrated. There’s no denying that there is s bond we have when I’m the one mainly involved in the child’s nourishment and growth. 
 
Once she came out of me though, I saw that people’s view of the scenario changed almost instantly. Anything that was happening with me, became completely separate from my child and the things she experienced. 
 
The thing is, I KNEW that it was so deeply intertwined. It would start to annoy me how people would ask about the baby all the time but never once ask about me? 
 
So I’d keep quiet to not seem “selfish”, when in reality everything should have been about ME. 
 
I am the vessel that got this soul here, 
and yes I am important. 
See from the time we get pregnantand carry the baby we start paving the perception of motherhood for ourselves and what that means. We have baby showers, that are baby centered. We go baby shopping, We obsess over everything having to do with the baby. 

 
Right now in the U.S. Maternal Mortality is at a high, while infant mortality is at an extreme LOW. What does that mean? There are children coming into this world with no mama to meet, even though she got them here.  
  
We can blame it on the technical illnesses, and complications. The real focus is to me, why do they exist in the first place?  
 
I for one, do not think childbirth is as difficult as this society has painted it to be (especially throughout history). So it’s safe to say that there is an energetic imbalance in the light (attention) we are giving the realm of mamahood. 

Here are some of the MAIN Things I notice.. 
1. Mama should be Properly Blessed Into Mamahood 
 
In ancient indigenous tradition, a little before the time of her birth all the women of the tribe would gather to bless her into a peaceful journey towards being a mama. They would share their stories, give her advice, Honor her body by decorating it with beads and body art, and send love to the baby for their safe arrival. It’s nowadays known as a “Blessingway”. 
 
Today, no one thinks of the process but more readily focus on the baby by bringing the baby gifts and good wishes. This is beautiful, the only thing is.. mama gets no recognition. The process she must go through to ensure the safe travel of her child goes unnoticed in reference to the spiritual and emotional support that these things need just as much as the Pilates and yoga classes.

 



2. Baby should Be Close To Mama, Always 

 You’ve gotten back home from the hospital, or maybe you had a home birth.. and well, would you look at that! It’s been 3 weeks and now you’ve gotta go to work. So you send your baby to the nearest doctor to get fully loaded with shots that is required by the daycare for your child to have so that they can care for him while you make ends meat. 
 
In other countries, baby doesn’t leave mamas side for at least 3 years. And it’s been three weeks, maybe a little bit longer and you’re separated from your beautiful baby. 
 
All day long you’re thinking about them, wondering if they’re okay, if they’re eating well, you’re even getting a little jealous of the person who’s spending so much time with them because deep down you know you’re the only one who can love your baby the way you do. 
 
We’re taught that if we hold our children too much that we’ll spoil them, that we’ve gotta break them from our warmth and comfort to fit our own personal and societal needs. 
 
This is crazy because it tells our spiritual mind that this child is on your time, and when they’re doing anything outside of stroking our identity and ego, they’re essentially a burden. 
 
This leads women to do all kinds of crazy things with their children, like locking them in a closet when they can’t find a babysitter so they can go to the club. Or Ignoring their child’s cry when they don’t feel like being bothered.

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3. Mamas Baby, Papas Maybe 
 
Ever wonder why, the father in a family has different relationships with each of their children? And these children have different moms, living in different places? Most likely, Daddy will have the best bond with child of the Mama he has the best relationship with. 
 
Nowadays people really draw crooked lines when it comes to co-parenting, and raising a family. Women are literally expected to lower their worth, tolerate things she normally wouldn’t, and even just be grateful when it comes to having a father that’s actively present in a child’s life. The thing is, that child’s relationship with their father is coated with whatever relation that was had between him and mama.
 
If she can’t stand him, hates his guts, never wants to see him again.. then the same rules are gonna apply to her creation and that baby will feel that. If she loves him and appreciates being around him, then that baby will feel that. It doesn’t matter how much she tries to make herself ignore the feelings she gets, the truth will always come out through that baby. 
 
So the next time someone tries to guilt trip or shame a woman for exercising her rights to feel, and act on those feelings in her own best interest— don’t opt to make everything once again, solely about the child. The child’s well-being is dependent upon their Mamas well-being. 
 
Whatever she goes through will leak out onto her children.
Therefore Her comfort, Love and Wellness is of upmost importance.
 All Over The Worldthere are women opting to feed their babies lab made formula over their own nurturing milk. I ask them why? Some say they wanted to, but just couldn’t seem to produce any milk. Others say they couldn’t because their babies suck too hard and it hurts, or that their nipples are sensitive.. OR that it’s too much work. 
 
& I agree, with the pressures women are faced with (raising children, raising men, running the world) breast feeding your child can be exhausting, exasperating and formula just feels and seems like a no brainer.  
  
But what if I told you milk, wasn’t just water minerals and nutrients? It’s not a blueprint formula your body makes like they do in labs, Our very thoughts, emotions and energy goes into our milk and can develop your babies strength and immunity faster and far better than a bottle ever could. 
  
So why then do women do it?
As I said, a large proportion opt for it because they feel that there is no better choice than the one their doctors feed them. 
 
When I was pregnant with Eleva (my daughter), it was a little more obvious to people that My health and the babies health was entirely integrated. There’s no denying that there is s bond we have when I’m the one mainly involved in the child’s nourishment and growth. 
 
Once she came out of me though, I saw that people’s view of the scenario changed almost instantly. Anything that was happening with me, became completely separate from my child and the things she experienced. 
 
The thing is, I KNEW that it was so deeply intertwined. It would start to annoy me how people would ask about the baby all the time but never once ask about me? 
 
So I’d keep quiet to not seem “selfish”, when in reality everything should have been about ME. 
 
I am the vessel that got this soul here, 
and yes I am important. 
 

 
See from the time we get pregnantand carry the baby we start paving the perception of motherhood for ourselves and what that means. We have baby showers, that are baby centered. We go baby shopping, We obsess over everything having to do with the baby. 

 
Right now in the U.S. Maternal Mortality is at a high, while infant mortality is at an extreme LOW. What does that mean? There are children coming into this world with no mama to meet, even though she got them here.  
  
We can blame it on the technical illnesses, and complications. The real focus is to me, why do they exist in the first place?  
 


I for one, do not think childbirth is as difficult as this society has painted it to be (especially throughout history). So it’s safe to say that there is an energetic imbalance in the light (attention) we are giving the realm of mamahood. 
Here are some of the MAIN Things I notice.. 
1. Mama should be Properly Blessed Into Mamahood 
 
In ancient indigenous tradition, a little before the time of her birth all the women of the tribe would gather to bless her into a peaceful journey towards being a mama. They would share their stories, give her advice, Honor her body by decorating it with beads and body art, and send love to the baby for their safe arrival. It’s nowadays known as a “Blessingway”. 
 
Today, no one thinks of the process but more readily focus on the baby by bringing the baby gifts and good wishes. This is beautiful, the only thing is.. mama gets no recognition. The process she must go through to ensure the safe travel of her child goes unnoticed in reference to the spiritual and emotional support that these things need just as much as the Pilates and yoga classes.

 

2. Baby should Be Close To Mama, Always 

 You’ve gotten back home from the hospital, or maybe you had a home birth.. and well, would you look at that! It’s been 3 weeks and now you’ve gotta go to work. So you send your baby to the nearest doctor to get fully loaded with shots that is required by the daycare for your child to have so that they can care for him while you make ends meat. 
 
In other countries, baby doesn’t leave mamas side for at least 3 years. And it’s been three weeks, maybe a little bit longer and you’re separated from your beautiful baby. 
 
All day long you’re thinking about them, wondering if they’re okay, if they’re eating well, you’re even getting a little jealous of the person who’s spending so much time with them because deep down you know you’re the only one who can love your baby the way you do. 
 
We’re taught that if we hold our children too much that we’ll spoil them, that we’ve gotta break them from our warmth and comfort to fit our own personal and societal needs. 
 
This is crazy because it tells our spiritual mind that this child is on your time, and when they’re doing anything outside of stroking our identity and ego, they’re essentially a burden. 
 
This leads women to do all kinds of crazy things with their children, like locking them in a closet when they can’t find a babysitter so they can go to the club. Or Ignoring their child’s cry when they don’t feel like being bothered.
 
3. Mamas Baby, Papas Maybe 
 
Ever wonder why, the father in a family has different relationships with each of their children? And these children have different moms, living in different places? Most likely, Daddy will have the best bond with child of the Mama he has the best relationship with. 
 
Nowadays people really draw crooked lines when it comes to co-parenting, and raising a family. Women are literally expected to lower their worth, tolerate things she normally wouldn’t, and even just be grateful when it comes to having a father that’s actively present in a child’s life. The thing is, that child’s relationship with their father is coated with whatever relation that was had between him and mama.
 
If she can’t stand him, hates his guts, never wants to see him again.. then the same rules are gonna apply to her creation and that baby will feel that. If she loves him and appreciates being around him, then that baby will feel that. It doesn’t matter how much she tries to make herself ignore the feelings she gets, the truth will always come out through that baby. 
 
So the next time someone tries to guilt trip or shame a woman for exercising her rights to feel, and act on those feelings in her own best interest— don’t opt to make everything once again, solely about the child. The child’s well-being is dependent upon their Mamas well-being. 
 
Whatever she goes through will leak out onto her children.
Therefore Her comfort, Love and Wellness is of upmost importance.



All Over The Worldthere are women opting to feed their babies lab made formula over their own nurturing milk. I ask them why? Some say they wanted to, but just couldn’t seem to produce any milk. Others say they couldn’t because their babies suck too hard and it hurts, or that their nipples are sensitive.. OR that it’s too much work. 
 
& I agree, with the pressures women are faced with (raising children, raising men, running the world) breast feeding your child can be exhausting, exasperating and formula just feels and seems like a no brainer.  
  
But what if I told you milk, wasn’t just water minerals and nutrients? It’s not a blueprint formula your body makes like they do in labs, Our very thoughts, emotions and energy goes into our milk and can develop your babies strength and immunity faster and far better than a bottle ever could. 
  
So why then do women do it?
As I said, a large proportion opt for it because they feel that there is no better choice than the one their doctors feed them. 
 
When I was pregnant with Eleva (my daughter), it was a little more obvious to people that My health and the babies health was entirely integrated. There’s no denying that there is s bond we have when I’m the one mainly involved in the child’s nourishment and growth. 
 
Once she came out of me though, I saw that people’s view of the scenario changed almost instantly. Anything that was happening with me, became completely separate from my child and the things she experienced. 
 
The thing is, I KNEW that it was so deeply intertwined. It would start to annoy me how people would ask about the baby all the time but never once ask about me? 
 
So I’d keep quiet to not seem “selfish”, when in reality everything should have been about ME. 
 
I am the vessel that got this soul here, 
and yes I am important. 
 

 
See from the time we get pregnantand carry the baby we start paving the perception of motherhood for ourselves and what that means. We have baby showers, that are baby centered. We go baby shopping, We obsess over everything having to do with the baby. 

 
Right now in the U.S. Maternal Mortality is at a high, while infant mortality is at an extreme LOW. What does that mean? There are children coming into this world with no mama to meet, even though she got them here.  
  
We can blame it on the technical illnesses, and complications. The real focus is to me, why do they exist in the first place?  
 


I for one, do not think childbirth is as difficult as this society has painted it to be (especially throughout history). So it’s safe to say that there is an energetic imbalance in the light (attention) we are giving the realm of mamahood. 
Here are some of the MAIN Things I notice.. 
1. Mama should be Properly Blessed Into Mamahood 
 
In ancient indigenous tradition, a little before the time of her birth all the women of the tribe would gather to bless her into a peaceful journey towards being a mama. They would share their stories, give her advice, Honor her body by decorating it with beads and body art, and send love to the baby for their safe arrival. It’s nowadays known as a “Blessingway”. 
 
Today, no one thinks of the process but more readily focus on the baby by bringing the baby gifts and good wishes. This is beautiful, the only thing is.. mama gets no recognition. The process she must go through to ensure the safe travel of her child goes unnoticed in reference to the spiritual and emotional support that these things need just as much as the Pilates and yoga classes.

 

2. Baby should Be Close To Mama, Always 

 You’ve gotten back home from the hospital, or maybe you had a home birth.. and well, would you look at that! It’s been 3 weeks and now you’ve gotta go to work. So you send your baby to the nearest doctor to get fully loaded with shots that is required by the daycare for your child to have so that they can care for him while you make ends meat. 
 
In other countries, baby doesn’t leave mamas side for at least 3 years. And it’s been three weeks, maybe a little bit longer and you’re separated from your beautiful baby. 
 
All day long you’re thinking about them, wondering if they’re okay, if they’re eating well, you’re even getting a little jealous of the person who’s spending so much time with them because deep down you know you’re the only one who can love your baby the way you do. 
 
We’re taught that if we hold our children too much that we’ll spoil them, that we’ve gotta break them from our warmth and comfort to fit our own personal and societal needs. 
 
This is crazy because it tells our spiritual mind that this child is on your time, and when they’re doing anything outside of stroking our identity and ego, they’re essentially a burden. 
 
This leads women to do all kinds of crazy things with their children, like locking them in a closet when they can’t find a babysitter so they can go to the club. Or Ignoring their child’s cry when they don’t feel like being bothered.
 
3. Mamas Baby, Papas Maybe 
 
Ever wonder why, the father in a family has different relationships with each of their children? And these children have different moms, living in different places? Most likely, Daddy will have the best bond with child of the Mama he has the best relationship with. 
 
Nowadays people really draw crooked lines when it comes to co-parenting, and raising a family. Women are literally expected to lower their worth, tolerate things she normally wouldn’t, and even just be grateful when it comes to having a father that’s actively present in a child’s life. The thing is, that child’s relationship with their father is coated with whatever relation that was had between him and mama.
 
If she can’t stand him, hates his guts, never wants to see him again.. then the same rules are gonna apply to her creation and that baby will feel that. If she loves him and appreciates being around him, then that baby will feel that. It doesn’t matter how much she tries to make herself ignore the feelings she gets, the truth will always come out through that baby. 
 
So the next time someone tries to guilt trip or shame a woman for exercising her rights to feel, and act on those feelings in her own best interest— don’t opt to make everything once again, solely about the child. The child’s well-being is dependent upon their Mamas well-being. 
 
Whatever she goes through will leak out onto her children.
Therefore Her comfort, Love and Wellness is of upmost importance.

Growing up, as a young girl. My body did very sporadic things. As a child I was small, lean and athletic. Then I became somewhat sedentary, focusing on my artwork and video games. I grew taller and my lack of activity resulted in my Betty spaghetti body. Long skinny legs, short stubby torso, and long skinny arms. As I reached teen years, I evened out in all areas.. except for one area to be specific.
​

MY BREASTS Were Huge.
I swear I had the biggest breasts my freshman and sophomore year. And I’m only saying this because people would come to me time, after time again (my fellow classmates) to tell me that I had some watermelons on me. I hadn’t realized they were so big, and I honestly didn’t give it much thought either. I continued with my regular life, wearing and dressing the same way I had before. Something was different at that point though.

People Judged The Way I Dressed

I remember times where I would walk around the house, and get pulled to the side by my mom. She’d tell me that when I don’t wear a bra it makes her husband uncomfortable.


Times when I would walk into the administration office of my school and they would tell me that my shirt was inappropriate (a v-neck long sleeve?) which made absolutely no sense to me.


Even in college when I’d go out with my girlfriends, they’d have a critiquing eye on other women and they way that they’d dress. 


It would lead me to question,
was it the clothes that were the issue.. or was it the body parts?


IF I still had the body of an underdeveloped little girl, would me wearing fitted clothing that accentuated instead of hide my body be such a problem?


So I’m all grown up now, With a daughter to raise. Since I’ve transitioned into this phase of my life, I find that I’m dressing a lot more loosely. Having little desire to accentuate my body with the clothing that I wear everywhere I go. I feel that has a lot to do with how I also feel about my body at this point in time.


Now I’m looking in the mirror asking these same questions,
only from the opposite point of view.


Does my Increase in Clothing have something to say about
how I FEEL about my body? 


Am I judging My Body from the effects it’s endured due to my pregnancy? Do I feel unworthy of being accentuated? 




The Answer To All These Questions, Is Yes.




So How Do I Clothe My Body?




How Do I Gain The Respect and Admiration I Crave Through My Presentation?




From Taking the time to Introspect I’ve Found the Best Ways to Ignite Respect through The Way We Dress.

1. Dress Based On YOUR Comfort Zone and No One Else.

When you prep to get dressed, are you thinking about other people and how they may perceive you? If so, stop it right now. A lot of us do this, and think it’s normal. It leads us to portray ourselves in ways that are not in line with our true being.


Don’t feel like wearing a bra? Let the girls hang free!


No Undies today? Let the yoni BREATH!


Dress according to what you are comfortable with, not based on what other people are comfortable with. 




2. Integrate Love Into Your Attire


It’s 25 degrees outside and there’s that one girl who decides to wear shorts or summer clothing. We’re all wondering what in the (@&$””:@:&&,&$) is she thinking?


Well, I will say that I have been that woman. Most times, I was literally unaware of just how cold it was and I also hadn’t put any thought into how I should dress, in relation to where I was going, in relation to the temperature outside. 


In other words, I was being a bit careless about my presentation. 


Actually integrating my mood and the life that I’m mindfully living with what I choose to wear shows a massive amount of love and care for my existence. 




 
 3.  Beauty Is Defined By The Beautiful 
 
A lot of young girls and grown women dress according to societies standard of beauty. What about your own standard?
 
The definition on beauty is to be balanced, to be just.
 
That means to honor your body in relation to all that surrounds it within and without. Being Beautiful means BEING YOU, So ask yourself— who it is you’ve created your image from? Your image is the energy you get up everyday guiding your every action with. Is it uplifting? Does it empower you? 


The only way to know is understanding how you feel without it. Do you feel less beautiful without your weave? Do you feel less worthy without your makeup and eyeliner done a certain way?


The image you’re living in is beautiful when you can loose everything you’ve used to build it, and still FEEL worthy. 

In a nutshell, it's what we experience when fall asleep. Some dream every night, some wish they would. Some have dreams filled with fears and anxieties.. they are known as nightmares. Some dream so good they want to throw a brick at whoever got them up. We can all agree that dreaming is a place of excitement and uncertainty all at the same time. ​

​It's simple, so let me break down the simplicity. We close our eyes,  drift... and suddenly.. we don't exist. At least not how we are used to. See when we are up and active, our ego is present. Our "Self"/ Cells no longer exist. It is only the existence, and all that it has the potential for is what takes precedent. There is no "I". "Me" or "My".. there only IS.

​The Sun goes down, We get sleepy. Some of us are nocturnal, so I'll make sure to include you guys as well. No matter if you sleep all day or sleep all night, The darkness brings on a mood of going within. Laying low on the extroversion and expressing while sinking in deep into the mechanisms of thought and feeling. 

What is life really? Who am I? Yeah all the scary questions we reluctantly ask our cells and often for some have a hard time answering, these questions get asked in the night.  Why do you think all the scary movies are "dark"? The Sexual Encounters with lights dimmed? 

Well, BECAUSE

The Darkness is the place of creation.  

Not externally where we can see it, but internally in our emotional creative space.

​The Moon is a great example of how this dark void, is the perfect soil for planting seeds. When the moon is dark in its entirety.. the womb is dark also. Ready for conception, ready for life to sprout out from the depths of our emotions. We call on the events and scenarios that take place in our lives. Through the yin, internal realm we paint the life our univerSOUL & spirit truly wants to live. 

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